Possible Light Bulb Moment

[Culchie]

I only joined last weekend so bear with me .I had an appointment with my Psychiatrist today and it was a light bulb moment for me at least .I was buzzing due to a nice sunny day (long time since I have felt like that I hasten to add ) However to the point .In my newbie post I had an in cling of what I was suffering with .I had learning difficulties when I was young ,but back in the sixties it was put down to "just one of those things "  I rebelled through my teenage years and did not follow in the footsteps of my family and go to Uni etc .I found a little niche in life that I was happy with and kept me busy and in demand . After moving to the land of the continuous Rain cloud (Ireland ) to a nice and quiet and far less stressful life (or so I thought ) It all started to go downhill./ Lost my job, unfinished cottage, Wife get ill etc. I started to go downhill and had a big meltdown . After suffering for years of depression and Anxiety attacks ,doing counselling and meds finally  I have a possible reason to be cheerful.
After searching and reading peoples journeys on here and elsewhere on the web ,then looking further into it and chatting with my Doctor there is a strong possibility that I have been suffering from ADHD. I am awaiting an ADHD assessment results as we speak and have been referred to an ADHD specialist/counsellor .
     Being in a busy environment through work and taking little time off for hobbies and down time must of kept it at bay .Now because I am in a very isolated area although very Friendly etc  and lovely part of the world , the Grey matter took its decision that it was getting bored and started by over thinking things whereupon things started to nosedive very quickly . My mind the way it works is totally alien to me but at least its now given me a possible reason for all this trouble and therefore seems a lightbulb moment in my eyes. North of the eyebrows is definitely a strange beast but hoping now that if I now what to feed it and with some of that very hard stuff to find motivation and get up and go then perhaps I might fight myself out of this quagmire . I realise that this might sound to easy for some you but again I am hoping it might throw some light onto the subject and give some of you a bit of hope  .Its early days I know but fingers crossed and all that .
   

[Sweetpea]

Thanks for sharing this.  Sometimes it helps to put a name to what's wrong.  When you are fighting something unknown, it can be very difficult.

I do hope you have found the answer.  What you say about leading a very busy life, then moving to some where so tranquil and slowing down your pace of life, does make sense.

X x

[Culchie]

 Still waiting to hear .It would help me no end if this is the case" as it would mean its not actually my fault" if that makes sense .Also knowing the cause will I think help me no end because I can then try to keep myself occupied etc so it takes my mind of the problems even if its sort of fake .A journey they say has got to start where just hoping there is a peaceful and enlightened end

[Culchie]

 Well the lightbulb moment is going well at the moment .It looks like an 85% chance that I have ADHD lurking somewhere in the large expanse of emptiness in the space north of the eyebrows .It hasnt been verified but the tests show it hence the 85 ..
I have been referred to an Occupational Therapist (thought they were more  physical) . Anyway at least I am not getting "keep on taking the Tablets attitude "and hopefully will be able to get the guidance and help with it . Although I have been on here for a brief period of time the amount of help it has given me just reading the posts and knowing that I am not alone and am not an outcast , and it made me realise that although I have suffered some very dark moments (some quite recently) that United we can beat it but being on your todd is not funny and definitely not  healthy . So heres is a big    to you all and hope I can help you in any way I can.

[craig84]

Hey culchie!! Your name promted me to read this as i relocated to ireland from east london when i was a child, complete culture shock and i hated it... from that experience i learned to apreciate the tranquility it can bring and like you, how that grey cloud can make the most beutiful setting no matter how vast and open seem like a prison.

Understanding and accepting our 'issues' i believe is the cure. Realising that things get worse before they get better helps me through the tougher days...

Id urge everyone to educate and study the diagnosis given to us...whatever illneses we suffer from understanding them is they key to eventually accepting our negative experiences in life.

Awareness for mental illness continues to grow, im working towards now we have that awarenes to help people understand mental illness with the aim to allieviate the stigma and judgements we get from most of society!

Keep fighting and thanks for sharing.
Were all in one way or another in the same boat!